18 years old

25 December 2011, I already step in 19 years old, become an adult can't do childish things already.

In the year 2011, think back I had done many things that I never do before. All is my first time. First time driving on the street until Penang island from my house, first time shopping alone, first time donate blood, and many many I had forgotten. In the same year I also had use many money, from 1 years old until 18 years old, the most I use is in year 2011. I had buy and Andriod phone and many branded things, need to control myself for the coming year.

This year birthday celebrate with my family and friends also la >.< But got feel a bit 'kong xu' I think is I am too stress in my coming final exam, I scare I can't work well in the exam, can't get a good result, and because of it make me I can't really enjoy my birthday. My birthday night and also Christmas night was alone in hostel, it feel so lonely. Can I get a girlfriend coming year? I think I can't make it next year too, now I'm concentrate on study more than relationship.

A bit feel like want to cry out loud!! I'm too stress!!

This birthday also can be my last birthday if 2012 is true.

Tired

I'm really feel tired living like this.

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Pressure

Am I give myself too much pressure?

Until I cannot control my healthy?

In the serious time for me to prepare my final exam, I was fall sick.

I also feel that I have give myself too much pressure, but I din give myself pressure how I can get a nice result, a nice future?

I know my English is like shit, but I'm trying to improve it, don give me pressure please~ And also no need straightly and told me my English language like shit cause I know it. Don think you own a better English language means that can hold the world. As my friend said, what kind of people you are is important than the human capital you gain.

For this semester all is Level 3 paper, really make me feel pressure!! One of the subject in this semester, my coursework mark just enough for attend the Final Exam, really make me feel nobody can help me, and just to help myself by own. I cannot fail any subject in Diploma, if I fail and means that I din have a qualification to continue my Degree and followings.

Friendship, recently is popular on studying while earn money, and this kind of earning the money is not working at shopping center and is through call friends to join the business, Score A ,easy Pharmax and so on... I'm saw my friends is killing their friends one by one. Sorry for that, that I say until like that~ That is what I truly feel it. Don blame me that I tell my friends to don join the business, I just want my friends. Cause I know when they join it, they will change mind and I will lose many friends that we already have a long relationship. Sorry.

Love. No love for me recently just study is the most important for me. And I will feel very lonely for this year Christmas' Eve Night, cause my best friend is not coming back because of exam and no couple, so no dating just celebrate with my family.

That's all for my shit English!

Miss

I'm so miss you all!! Two years!! We had graduate from Form 5 2 years already!! How long we did not meet again? Although when we meet now will not have anything to talk, BUT I still wanna to meet you all talk about how you are recently. Time really pass very fast. But you all still in my mind, just like happened yesterday. Memories. Got you all in my memories were very good for me!! I'm so happy that I had you all as my friends, accompany me pass all the time, got Happy, got Sadness, got Crazy!! It was make my life wonderful!!!

MISS YOU ALL!!! LOVE YOU ALL!!

[I'm cry]

Scare.

I very scare that I need to repeat the whole paper in my diploma life. If do like that I'm totally no need to proceed my degree and about ACCA do not think about it. I know it was only a small failure in my life and I know many succeed people also said that no failure how to become succeed? but I cannot pass my own, I feel very scare and worry about it. How come this will happen near my big day? I'm totally no mood to celebrate it, and my final exam also will drop at 27 December, wth!!  Become more stress when nearing the final exam, scare and worry. Sometimes, I will ask myself what go I want, and I can answer it! No goals no target in my life!! Do not have them, what is the motivate for me to make my life interest? Really hate myself.

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其实

我还是忘不了你。

今天突然互相对望了一秒，让我再次把慢慢淡忘的你，变成记忆犹新的你。

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如果

如果我消失在这个世界会变成怎样?

答案是没变,而好处多过坏处.

干嘛?

我最近在干嘛?

什么事都不顺心...

人生低潮?

很累很累!!

很想大哭!!

我觉得我快遮不下去了!!

我没力了!!

心情很复杂...

不懂我要的是什么?

现在是怎样?

我就是一个比较女性化的男生,那又得罪你吗?

我的忍耐度也是有限的咯!

我也是人!!

啊!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

讲人之前先拿镜子看看自己!!!

空窗

空窗快两年，试问谁不想有恋爱的滋润？

每逢节日或孤单没朋友陪时，就会想为什么不在个伴呢？

缘分吧~

它不来，你也耐得它何了。

就把现在的时间让自己成长多一点，将来它来到时就不会不成熟的作出决定。

时间真的过得很快。

在不到一年的时间我又将毕业了，将离开这个城市到另外城市求知识。

这就是人生啊！

又是将踏入另一个阶段。

珍惜现在所拥有的一切，不管是物质还是心灵上的，不要到自己倒下的那一天才后悔。

Real Steel

This movie very nice, not only fight inside also got love inside.

The love between a father and his son.

The star I give for this movie is 4 Star [ Max 5 ]

If you not yet go to watch this movie, get it when this Deepavali Holidays^^

[I try to make and conclusion for every movie I had watch onward]

Business Game

In this semester I had join a Business Game, it is annually event for our college.

Our team name " Re-Board " , why we name this? Cause what we selling for this business game is using recycle cardboard to reproduce a product that we can use in our daily life.

There are two product we selling, the first product is Re-Board Stand [ Laptop Stand made by cardboard] and the second product is Re-Board Holder [ A holder to hold the pen or mobile phone do not easily drop down.

First of all I want to thanks my friends who support my team and also those friends help me to produce the product. Thank you very much. Because we want to produce all the product on time, we had burn the midnight oil about 5 days, everyday until 3am at last we success.

The three days we selling the product at Foyer, TARC I had get the means and experience to be a promoter. Within these three days, it was very fun although sometimes will happened somethings not nice, but I really enjoy about it. And also know about what means friendship, thanks the three of my friends came from BM[ My hometown] to support me!! Thank you very much!! Some of them call them to support also don want, but is ok for me cause I just saw your true face and the true relationship^^

Firstly when I join this business game I got a bit regret, but after a few days of effort, now I can tell you all I din't regret at all to join this business game!! And I had enjoy my college life!! Although is tired but I think some of you also cannot taste it. For me just left about one more year so I want to enjoy my college life 'gao gao'!! So that I never regret for it.

Re-Board Stand

Team mate^^

Re-Board Holder

Team mate!!

Re-Board Robot

过了, 放了

最终, 解脱

不再纠缠

你我自由

再见!

Last Present

I cannot find the rose watch and they say is Valentine's special edition.

Sigh. So I change to another but same brand but not so nice. It colour is pink.

Now just wait the day come and add something more.

Don't refuse my present.

选择,决定

现在的我非常犹豫不决,

不懂我即将作的决定是否正确.

会伤害到她吗?

真的真的不懂,

真的真的很辛苦.

爱情这件事真的让人烦了又烦.

就跟着我想做的吧~

不然让我的这一生留下遗憾.

Preparation

Get prepare for it from now.

Get prepare from heart until outside.

Get ready to accept a good or bad result for it.

Get ready for everything will happen onward.

Get ready for all!!

Pray hard!!

Get myself ready!!

Go go go!!

纠缠

我真的觉得我不可再纠缠下去了

我必须放

必须放开

就是过不了自己的那一关

。。。

Lover

Where is my lover?

Really want some love to moisturize myself.

<3

Money

I want Penasonic Lumix GF2, Guess Watch, Aldo Shoes!!

来

大家都来了, 为什么你不来?

Branded

Recently I fall in love in branded things.

In the conversation with friends also about the branded things and prices.

I need to control myself not so addict on it.

Ar!!!

Happy

You finally reply me.

I'm so happy although is some simply words but already make me feel happy already.

+u!!

好想

好想和你说说话, 但你不回应.

好想按赞, 怕你会更讨厌我.

不管怎样我都还会每天都想你一次.

还有还有5天考试我们在不知情下竟然撞衫4次颜色一样.

是缘分吗?

我又感觉你好像有话和我讲,但没讲.

不懂啦!!

我想在你今年的生日送你一份礼物,希望你能接受,也有可能是收到我送你的最后一份礼物,也希望不是.

想你!

Sem Break!!

I had study Tar College 1 year and 1 long semester!!!

So happy!! Like nearly to success.

This sem break I planning to have a full schedule of activities.

Planning!! Searching!! Wohooo!!!

Oh yeah!!

Happy Holiday my course mate ya and also the Tarcian!!

Oh yah!!

Study Hard

Long time did not update already, cause busy preparing my final exam.

Today had exam my first subject Management Accounting Fundamentals, just can hope it can be have a nice result.

I know that what I have done before the exam is sure for that.

Just want to always tell myself that do not always compare with others.

I don't know study smart so I study hard.

I can't get a fabulous result but I work hard to get a good result.

After exam I was planning have a trip to Pulau Langkawi hope it can be^^

Wish all the Tarcian good luck, especially for you <3

怕输,妒忌

我好怕输!

我好妒忌!

如果可以在我身上去除,那有多好?

我不想要!!!

我觉得好累!!!

我不要...

Scare

I want you!

But...

I did not have the courage.

[Last year Capture dii]

Satisfy

I never had a day so satisfy.

I bought a bag that is 'written' my name on it.

And never had a cake that so delicious.

Just not enough time to enjoy it.

<3

开心

今天有莫名的开心

就这样









等待是值得的吗?

你我都不懂.

初恋这件小事

我会等下去.

Sweet

You are so sweet today.

Although the present is not belong to me but I feel that you are full of happiness.

Your decide is correct.

But I will love you always.

Third Times

Yesterday I dream about her.

It was the third times for this year.

Anything the dream wanna to tell me?

This time in the dream she was talk to me.

It is will be the scene that we meet up after few years.

What is the meaning?

Who can tell me?

Think Back.

Thinking back...

The day that I know you and him together is around the day in last year.

You did not tell me that you and him together.

I know this message from a hacker account.

When I see the kissing photo between you with him, my tears is drop.

I very sad.

And I know I no more.

I just remember uncle said when study, look more on study, and I have done it soon, but I loss another.

By the way I also want to thanks uncle if I graduate with a nice result.

I no more!! But I cannot release myself!!

You're so beautiful to Me.

Today when you step in the lecture hall, I was like see the angle in front me.

You're so beautiful to me forever and ever, although anything happen.




My life is brilliant.
My love is pure.
I saw an angel.
Of that I'm sure.
She smiled at me on the subway.
She was with another man.
But I won't lose no sleep on that,
'Cause I've got a plan.

You're beautiful. You're beautiful.
You're beautiful, it's true.
I saw your face in a crowded place,
And I don't know what to do,
'Cause I'll never be with you.

Yeah, she caught my eye,
As we walked on by.
She could see from my face that I was,
Fucking high,
And I don't think that I'll see her again,
But we shared a moment that will last till the end.

You're beautiful. You're beautiful.
You're beautiful, it's true.
I saw your face in a crowded place,
And I don't know what to do,
'Cause I'll never be with you.

You're beautiful. You're beautiful.
You're beautiful, it's true.
There must be an angel with a smile on her face,
When she thought up that I should be with you.

Saw

When lecture class, saw your back when I sit at your back,

let me think back about you.

When I pass the road, saw you waiting bus and bus station,

let me think back everything about you.

When I online, saw your status thinking about him,

totally let me think back everything about you.

One year pass by, I can't forget you everything about you.

I will miss you and love you forever and ever.

借东西的小人阿莉埃蒂

借东西的小人阿莉埃蒂

宫崎骏作品

太好看了!!!

♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥

到最后一幕莫名的感动流泪了.

宫崎骏 你太强了!!!

HER

I know she recently try to ignore me.

But I'm still find her.

...

LOSE

I very scare that I will lose for people.

You see me from outside, I will make it easy for me, like nothing to me at all.

But,

In my heart is very care about I lose for it.

I know that [translate from chinese] 'People compete with people will let the people die'

But I can't control for it.

Sometimes I know that I din't have place my afford to do it and get a bad result. And that time I only can scold myself that I din't put my all afford to get it.

But sometimes I have put my all afford to done it but also get a bad result or a result worst than a person din't put afford on it. I truly upset and want to give up.

I think I need to control my heart and thinking.

慢慢等

Today when attended the lecture I was sit behind you.

I think back why I so stupid that I did not cherish when you is mine.

Now just regret. And always do such stupid things to make your attention to me.

I will wait for you. <3

Life

Nowadays really tired for me, always run with the time.

I had checked my calender, from this week until August, every week got test on it and follow by final exam.

So rush!! Just like in the short semester.

Already week 5 I always cannot concentrate in my study yet, always addicted to Facebook's games and always laziness...

Hope that I can find back my hardworking in study mood as fast as possible.

Coming in week 9, my college have a public holiday so our class is planning go to Penang Light House as fund and hope it can be going smooth and also hope is a relax trip.

Last few night, I dreamed about her. For this year I had dreamed about her twice already. This time I dreamed she sitting at others car shape like Toyota Hilux. Don't know what the dream is want to tell me or I too miss her? Don't know.

Time

Time really pass too fast for me.

Many things I cannot finish!

Really feel disappointed.

Only about study things I also cannot handle well.

I think the most serious reason is l am too lazy...

Don know where is my hardworking go...

Wanna find it back and do not addict on games and dramas again.

Wanna be hardworking from tomorrow then only can reach my target!!

CPA 3.5 !!! Ar!!!!!!!!!

外在与内在

最近决定的我的外在真的看不下去了

好肥的我!!

怎么办?

不想减肥只想练身体~

因为我太黑了,鼻子太扁了,花美男离我太遥远了~

所以我选择型男~ 哈哈!!

努力努力锻炼身体!!




而内在呢~

太不充实了~

活了4分之一,感觉没什么~

需要补充补充...尤其是英文!!!

简直烂透了!!

加油加油!!

永远

如果我能永远活在中四和中五这段期间是多么的幸福

看到刚办完的光辉岁月营,就感到莫名的兴奋

就很莫名

还好我有参与他们的一小部分

还算没后悔

要怪就使学院时间排到这样

还我不能参与全程

最喜欢的感觉就是营完后的那一段时间

是最值得让人回忆,让人思念.

谈恋爱

好想谈恋爱咯~

我的房友四个，两个在谈恋爱了啦

他们的甜度慢慢的影响我，让我妒忌

看到他们的脸幸福洋溢的

好想谈恋爱

其中一个说你可以有啊！只是你的要求太高。。

要求太高？

仔细想想，真的有点高

算了吧

不要因为想恋爱而恋爱！！

记住。。

Dream

Recently have the feel want to do a model.

Don know is which sense 'ki xiao'.

Then I had found out that the way that help me to male the dream come true from Facebook.

I just want some idea to agree with me or support me, but somebody throw a big cold water towards me.

Feel so upset. I just want an idea or support words from you all but...

But finally a friend that agree with me, I'm so happy!! Is so happy!!!

Recently

Recently feel that I am changing

Changing to like to use money

Changing to talk loudly

Changing to become a man

Haha!!!




I want buy a camera

Cause recently I like to take photo

Hehe:)




I had said that I will never talk about her at here but I fail to do it

Cause I want to talk about her at here again...

I'm useless...

Every time see they so sweet at Facebook will feel upset...

Sigh what to do?

Only can call me stupid la... din treat her as good as I can done for her...

我

现在的我虽然渴求爱

但没对象

所以把重心放在学业上

加油!!








其实是借口。

闷

都已经开学两个星期了

都还没给ASSIGNMENT

真的有够闷

没事干

对着面子书都不知要干啥

阿不然就自己胡思乱想

想那些有的没的

又很想去看看戏，逛逛街

但没这种伴

重点是没交通

就过着宅男的生活吧

敷敷脸，看看书比较实际

为什么我的学院生活那么的无聊？

520

先打开这首MV

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=953SKGXsyds














今天是5月20日, 我爱你

你曾经问我,如果我再给你一次机会你会好好的对我吗?

当时的我答不出.

但我现在才懂得这答案.

但这答案现在对你来说已没有意义了,我也不须说.

昨夜的我想了好多.

我应该不需再这样纠缠下去了.

而这是我最后一封写到关于你的事物,再也没有再也没有.

希望你幸福.

感想

今天我到了Monkey Beach

想回当年，因为他去载你，让你和你妈吵架

而我也没干啥事来安慰你和解决

我很没用

今天你的朋友和我一起去

我知道我们连最基本的亲密动作也没做到

我很没用，有可能我在想我还没做好准备[借口]

也或许我怕把你的第一次拿走了，又没好好地对你

或许我不想当一个不负责任的人

或许我很胆小，也许这才是真真的原因。

对不起浪费你的时间和我一个胆小的人在一起。

为什么?

为什么我还会不由自主的一直一直的再去看她的主页?

那是什么意思?

就这样难放下她吗?

顿时觉得世界只剩下她一个而已...

再也没有再也没有...

希望我的痴恋不会干涩到他们的幸福[你觉得真的能吗?]

因为小三这种行为我会讲但不做![因为我没胆也没信心能做得比他好.]

只有他会做,什么干妹,放屁!!![会被抢也是我对她不好再会发生的.]

我不知道啦!!!

一年

我们分手一年了

我还是忘不了你

因为我没有好好的珍惜

还记得那年的这一天

我是多莫的胆小

逃避事实

让你一个人度过害怕

我真的很没用

很没用

但现在看到你这样幸福

我很开心

因为你的决定是对的

不然你就跟到一个不会幸福的人了

分手一周年快乐吧~

我还是会在想是否还可以...

朋友

最近朋友之间的感情多灾多难

原因很简单

就是不让步

我就像一个中间人似的

只能用我所知，我的理智去判断哪一方是对的

很累也

朋友之间要做到这样吗？

有时是要让步的，因为你不是永远都对的。

觉得

突然觉得我很像‘犀利人妻’里的温瑞凡

他是因为小三

而我是太在乎友谊

太笨了

结局就像他一样

什么都没有

没有爱情

没有友情

。。。

回忆

突然看到华乐演奏片段

顿时让我回想以前在乐团的生活

在乐团的生活已经是我生命中最精彩的一部分

从中一到中五让我去学校上课的其中一个动力就是乐团

虽然我们的乐团不是好到哪里

但是对我来说是很有很有意义的

我为乐团的付出有多少我都不在意

什么都可以做

也还好我爸妈支持我

谢谢你们

虽然我拉的琴没有好到哪里

但是我很享受我们一起奏一首歌的时候

很想很想回到以前

以前的我很笨，还向我们可以在外面组一个团

天真咯我~

哈哈！！

可是在华乐团的时间到我死的那一刻我还会记得！！

永不忘！！

一年

都要一年了

怎么？

怎么？

还是忘不了。。。

荒唐

最近觉得我自己做的事很荒唐

人家做的事都不跟

做自己爱做的

你们是不是觉得这种人很讨厌对吗?

但我就是

我还想我很厉害 很多人须要我

慢慢等啦

陈景泰

人家已经有别人啦

你已经过时了

再也没有用了

你是过去式的啦！！！

平民

但我就是不要当平民

现在要给我站的地方也没拉

寻找

闭关

由于考试的到来

我又要闭关了

阿不然

成绩烂的时候

没有一个理由让自己解释

希望能考到好成绩啦

^^

末日

最近频频发生很多天灾

在想几时会发生在自己身上

我 开始对每一件事情开始改观了

我觉得我在这样执著下去没办法

现在的我尽量得开心

尽量的享受现在受拥有的一切

尽量享受我的生活

不想带着遗憾离开

所以最近我会莫名的向你说晚安

你不要觉得奇怪

因为我怕明天会没机会讲了...

输

原来我真的很怕输

很怕很怕

我不能接受别人的批评

这就是我的缺点吧

今天老师在大家面前点评我

大家都笑了 我也在内 配合

可是我的心在哭泣

被人嘲笑的感觉

怪自己做不好吧~

当初

当初我选择了友情

放弃了我的爱情

是我笨吗?

很多人都以为我是爱情高手

教你们应该我行吧~

但对我自己所拥有的爱情

我很笨

当初我拥有很多友情

但有鬼用啊?

毕业了 什么都没有

如果当初我选择了爱情

而会一直一直的拥有一个人陪

不管你开心,伤心

她都会陪你

有多幸福

有缘人难找啊!

我是爱情笨蛋!!

感觉

最近真的感觉累了

好想好想休息

但还要挨过一个月

真的累了

有种无法形容的感觉

每天都过着同样的生活

很累

好想有一班很知心的朋友

每天一起吃,玩...

但我就是没有

一个人

什么东西都闷在心里

闷到出病了啦~

没有一个伴 也 没有一个朋友

累了

知道

我知道我现在做的一切是不对的

我想再争取你

横刀夺爱

我知道我不可以

但我还是克制不了我自己



要一年了

我也成长了许多

得知你生病了

真的好想去照顾你也

是我想太多。。。

最近

最近就很忙咯

因为这个学期是短学期

虽然只有三科

但是也够我们赶到半死

一大堆功夫要做

很得喘死了。。。

因为是短学期　

所以我又在想要去旅行

玩一玩　

放松放松一下

但是就是找不到一个适合的人

要找一个知心朋友或伴侣

真不容易啊！！！

生活

新的一年才开始不久

感觉坏坏的感觉一直来

那天去检查眼睛

本来是不想去的

现在去了

得知我的右眼生了一层膜

啊

很难接受啊

接下的日子必需要戴眼镜

没去检查就不用愁这样多咯

现在 什么东西都要顾了

感觉我的身体好像坏了

好希望把它丢掉 换个新的















这一年我过了单身情人节

好寂寞哦~

哈哈

人就是这样啦

当拥有时不珍惜,现在才后悔

有时候我还在想我们有没有可能有再次

对我还是有点希望

但是应该需要等很久 很久 很久...

算了吧。。。
















很快我在学院生活要一年了

感觉我有一些的成长

希望我能读完Diploma

然后进军Degree

Yeah!!!

农历新年

今年的新年 闷

初一去教堂,大伯家和小姑家[和往年一样]今年加了去拍全家福的活动 哈哈

初二大姑家,Gurney Plaza

初三爸妈朋友家,姑婆家,歌咏团团圆饭[Sunway Hotel,Oriental Cafe],看戏[和Jaxy,Yc,Kelvin&Alston]

初四去教堂,等朋友来我家,去吃晚餐,找老师拜年,唱K

初五。。。

初六。。。

。。。

。。

。

新年越过越没气氛

闷

。。。

聚会

新年要到 朋友的聚会当然不能少

但

我都应该不会到 原因很简单

尴尬

就是尴尬

聚会他们一定会到 而我要出现 好像是我的不该

所以 我选择不参 避免那些不必要的 尴尬

虽然 我是说没关系 但是 还是会有多少的 在意

其实 我觉得 我做太多男朋友不应该做的事 也没有尽责

所以 变成 每当见到她 都感到 。。。

就那种感觉

我还是觉得 让我在朋友群中 消失 好了

而且 有些朋友也会因 我和她 的关系 慢慢的排斥我

有时 我在想当初 我是不是把 友谊 看太重 才导致这种结局

这种结局 真的很痛很痛 透过 被人hack的account得知 他们的消息

那种痛 无法形容 也很难 原谅 对不起

新年

新年又要到咯

又要拿红包咯

对以前的我新年会很开心

现在还是会 但 就是不一样了

另一种感觉


新年就是要买新衣穿新的 什么都是新的

爱买得我当然回去买

可是今年买得比较少 因为 平常都有在买

所以 把以前买衣的那种快感 弄不见了

而且最近的衣来来去去都是这样 那样 跑不掉的

好难买一件 特别 不会撞的 当然要好穿

都要到了 都没买 [有可能要穿回去年的] 伤心








新的一年 当然要有新愿望咯

物质上的 电话 相机 保养的 衣装

接下来当然想要 新恋情 啦

哈哈 要一年了 都没有遇到

加油啦~ 哈哈！！


祝大家新年快乐！！！恭喜发财~~~